Separated by Feelings..

I am very emotional and I cant even imagine with closed eyes that what would happen after half a decade when I wake up to find a unknown presence and vibes?? That time I could do nothing apart from punishing myself that why did I let her go??? Just because of I couldnot hold her near me doesnot mean that happiness is out of stock in my quota!!! Living with this regret is much like living without a heart. Living around unknown faces is way very ,uch haunting and paining than lying in the grave. I wish it would have been only a physical attraction and not something like attachment of strings of our heart and soul. I would have somehow came over that issue but I have never till date restrain myself from compromising with everything I have been through.
Her presence around me have changed everything in my life drastically. My every thought is influenced by her penetration into my life. Whatever I do or sit ideal somehow she is responsible for this too. I do feel very low when she is not around and nothing seems to cheer me up apart from her presence. My all ways leads to her. She is the destination I was destined to when almighty allotted our share of destiny. In Such a strong way her existence has influenced my days and nights that hardly words can afford to explain whats my life is all about?? As I said that all ways leads to her; all the reasons for being good is also the same path leading to her.I am very emotional and I cant even imagine with closed eyes that what would happen after half a decade when I wake up to find a unknown presence and vibes?? That time I could do nothing apart from punishing myself that why did I let her go??? Just because of I couldnot hold her near me doesnot mean that happiness is out of stock in my quota!!! Living with this regret is much like living without a heart. Living around unknown faces is way very ,uch haunting and paining than lying in the grave. I wish it would have been only a physical attraction and not something like attachment of strings of our heart and soul. I would have somehow came over that issue but I have never till date restrain myself from compromising with everything I have been through.I have not promised myself for standing as a one lady man but may be I don’t want to give up on her presence in my life. I wanted to give my best shot without hoping for a home run.
I wished someday someone crazy about me would have written and expressed what I am doing???  I have never felt how about when someone is very much aggressive for your love and to add possessive as well. she is no way here around and I don’t think she will be here someday reading this note but did anyone ever tried to give their feelings words for me??? this is the thing and truth which kills me everyday slowly slowly. I know there are loads of people around who die everyday without being noticed by even a single soul but when you got everything you deserved then not getting noticed is like a looser..