i have alwaz feared of loneliness n emptiness.no its nthng like rohan rathore dnt worry!!! dnt get dis as an attitude bt its like i m very aloof wd ppl around me n stuffs as well.back in noida while i was working i got to knw wat kind of ppl wl stick to u.newaz i m none someone lik perfect so better i shud nt criticize d human race.
i often used to stand by the road side or at some high place from d road were d traffic is buzzing n applying brakes wud means u r dashed by d guy behind u.i was so much scared of being alone dat literally i used to run towards the buzzing traffic staring at different sort of lights n blinkers. dippers indicators and ll sort of fancy lights wud make me feel secured as if someone was chasing me in d dark and now whoever was chasing has backed out after seeing those numerous blinking lights n honks n screeching of tyres.i cud see him turning and warning me wid dire consequences next tym m alone sumwere.at tyms i wud feel low and then no body is thr around to sympathize wd me or console me or share wd me.i wud sit in connaught place n roam around and again sit somewere to give a break to my legs. group of frnds often roaming n having fun wd giving high fives and pulling each others\’ leg wud make me smile n ya wud also stabb me badly bringing tears to my eyes.those high fives\’ wud ofen remind me of my \”A\” group. no hesitation in saying dat dat group was d most adorable group of d current batch.evry guy in d group was specialised in his own field n wud do wateva on their terms only.u wud find some mix talents in dat group, be it; studies,wealthy,sports,wine-dine-69 n loads of other qualities were thr.we were masters of all trade and jack of none.nthng was impossible for d \”A\” group.apart from organizing a \”mujra\” at night we did everythng possible for a human being.it seems to be ages when last I heard a known voice or sumbody who wud offer his/her shoulder to shed tears on.though at most of the times my absence in any of d parties or outings or any bash was considered as half cooked.we almost had not less than thousand parties in a semester and I alwaz made sure to make the party-goers feel dis is the best floor they can afford in dis sans longitude latitude town. Not to specify d role of facebook which was my savior and posting status aka mechanism was more important than assignments which wud fetch me marks. Honestly I alwaz felt secured when I had those asses around me.”GIMME SOME SUNSHINE n WINE, DO GIMME D LAST CHANCE WID THOSE BASTARDS TO DINE” . m not in touch wid anybody specific rather we all r here on fbuk njoying sharing.
WE all buddies in deostreet were sobbing and showing how much we r gonna miss each other.it was nov. 2007 when we were shifted to campus hostel from the town hostel mind u in different hostels.we were as if shattered n had to pay for being in love wid those 70 guys. Me n karu were in hostel 2 and rest were in 3.i got a corner room on d top floor which was occupied by same branch seniors n they were very co-operative.just beneath my room was karu wd his branch seniors.16 rooms on each floor were divided giving way to a 400 mts. Passage wd lights on.i was on d left corner and on d same floor were my batchmates from d same region I came from.i had a reliance cdma cell phone which was on roaming and thr was no connectivity in d campus but I had to somehow manage to speak to my lady.she wud call me on my rommies no and later laduu gave me a nokia 6600 cell wjich was not completely out of order but had poor battery backup. Only 15 mins I cud talk wd dat cell.that was initial phase of our relationship so I cudnt take talking to her for granted.she alwaz complained of lack of time and distance relationship.i used to check her scrapbook and alwaz warned her to stay away from guys on orkut and dis alwaz sparked a big tension between us .i came very close to dose guys who were from same region.i can say dat kaushal was my best buddy as we smoked sitting on d top of mountain just by d side of our campus.everyday we wud trek and take snaps from his nokia n-series and upload on orkut at night.we used to smoke in washroom as to avoid complains regarding by d seniors or wardens and it was initial period so we made sure to stay within d limits.deepak,kuns,ranvir,subudh were other guys who shared the room wd kaushal. There were 2 rooms by d side full of guys rom d same region we were from and they were very close to kaushal .my lady wud often call me on kaushal’s cell and hats off to her for d courage to invest so much everyday in std calls.we wud talk late night and then I wud get in wd scrapping and by d time its 2am we wud catch up wid sleep.kaushal was very creative wd sketching and he was a die hard fan of ghazals n I too developed dat habit.it was my 1st sem exams in which I scored very badly and was missing badly my home n my lady so I asked dad if I cud come home for 2 days and he gave me permission.i was excited as I wud meet my lady also and she was also on cloud nine. When I reached berhampur around 5pm I got a call from kaushal and he was very emotional dat tym as they were going for party and were missing me very much.around 9pm again I got a call and dat was d worst moment for me.while they were getting inside d campus full drunk amit had a spat wd security guards and kaushal though was not involved but he was wd them so next dat they were asked to vacant the hostel. When I came back thngs were changed and now I shifted on kaushal’s bed who was now in town wd amit on rent. Now my room mates were from same region as I said and they knew dat this guy is not here to research on machines but jus to do stuffs according to his will.now dat phase was something when I used to drink everyday all alone sitting in tarini.d void made by my absence from d deo group was filled by or u can say somebody among us only now was standing at my place.
Next to my room lived puneet aka lotha and he hailed from patna and he was of my branch only.he was very gud at heart and alwaz ready to help anyone in anyway. I used to spent a lot of time wd him while feeling low and felt secured wid kuns n lotha to b honest. Very often punit raised a toast but whenva I asked him to giv company while I m drinking, he alwaz made sure dat he is around me. Around dat tym only I came close to aanchal and she shared all her tears wd me and I alwaz made sure to make her feel secured wd me. As far as I remember I never paid my mess bill and dat bill used to flow in on my masi n masti. That year I also went blore for d first time to meet my lady and stayed at rajeev’s flat wd her.almost no one will ever dare to bunk his semesters papers but it was of less importance when u compare wid importance of my lady. I alwaz had keen interest in magazines and literatures and due to dis I was u can say good at English and d only thing I cud boast off. Another was cricket and jus coz of dis I was known among jitm’ans otherwise if one imagine some excellent grades in viva then he is d most innocent person I have cum across.
It was first year cricket tournament dat I took 4 balls n 4 wkts against information technology brancehand since then cricket was incomplete widot my participation and dat was d sphere I made my presence felt to all. Our team dgen-x was invincible till final year when some of the fine juniors and our batchmates came up wid a team wid mixture of talent n power and honestly they actually played well so no disappointment after loosing.at few occasions prabhat dash the only ramji player among us took me wid him to some inter state n district tournaments and biswal the singer and most stylish batsman among us was someone who was very nyc at heart and still I m in touch wd them coz of their behavior.there were loads of guys who had anti-bihari mentality and still they r infected by dis but I hope in due course of their corporate assignments they wud come out of d shell.
Its tough and not fair to write their names and their importance n character sketch here but each one in d college inspired me and wished good for me.i was now a part of hostel 2 wid kunal and was very happy to come close to my deo group and we had many ups n downs and scenes but at d end u wud see us wiping each others tears n worries.there is one special person among d crowd for each one of us and I was no expection mind u. though I don’t wanna get personal but kunal was someone who stood by my side till d end in wateva situation. He was so much practical that he unstood what I was and how to survive wd me and I alwaz respected him and even as my guardian he took me to task. We had uncountable sessions on venkys’ shop while d classes r going on.in class scenario was nthng different from hostel except no half pants allowed in class. One hour class was very short for us and for our creatie works like txtng to my lady,writing love ballads,account maintaineance etc. weekends were alwaz packed for hangovers and cricket. Not on a single occasion I took my studies seriously.i alwaz lied to myself THAT ONE DAY THNGS WUD BE FINE and ya after reading dis if someone cums and observes me then he will say only one word “lucky bastard”. Semesters were getting odd to even and nothing tuned according to my wishes and my concern used to be the lab classes and dat also I got good grades in communication lab. No pages and no ink cud group my days spent in college.
ASHISH aka KARU: lal ashish kumar nath etc etc…. ya he had a long name as if its d title of some old hindi skit. Short height wd complexion as black as it cud get.he was a native of ranchi and he was a computer science lad. Chain smoker and d most loved among us. To his credit is numerous websites,programmes,web designs and all sort of creative work one can imagine in a studio color lab. He was d print media for our batch and one fourth of his time everyday was consumed by his printers n inks only.he was madly in love wd sumi who happened to be my sister.she was d most sweetest gurl of our college and she loved someone else who studied in blore but karu never gave up and I cant explain how much he loved her.literally apart from dying he did everything for her widot any expectation.we alwaz asked him to move on in life and don’t stick wd her but he used to say” sab apne bas mein nahi hota hai”. He never ever in his college life gave trouble to anyone in anyway. He was alwaz on his feet for anything n anytime.he happened to be my roomy in final year and I njoyed those days wd him. His life was all about sumi’s happiness and smiles and we salute him for dat. He made sure to clear his papers before he call it a day and he did. He had no future plans coz he alwaz planned thngs according to sumi’s wishes and plans.anytime anything anyway shud be d name of his love story. At times he happened to be so much frustrate that we named him frustu. It was hilarious to see his expressions and body languages when he got irritated wd something.his comments used to be single piece then. He was alwaz asked to carry on wid official work of college like printing n designing every minute poster and pamphlet.he was very famous among seniors and faculties. He never did thngs which wud land him in trouble but final year he got a spot on his awesome academic and that incident left a long lasting effect on some of the students and their future. A small clash of ideas between students and management perhaps is d only spot in d long career of our college and on karu’s life as well. He was convicted but nothng serious happened against him but he lost his clout among the management n dis brought him in d bad books of management which to some extent hampered his placement scenario.though nobody agrees coz we all know he is someone who is like a serpent making his way across n through wateva conditions u say.cheers!! to ashish and remember karu u gave not even a single lil reason to anyone in those four years to hate you or curse you.i wanna boast of u n ur status so hit d dotted centre.
AVINASH aka KAUA: native of hazaribagh n youngest among his siblings.physically he was d one whom ppl would recognize among wateva group u make him stand. Height was 6 and he was too skinny, too means really too skinny.he was someone who took shower on full moon light and give a damn to hygiene. He was d nly guy after my cousin bro I have met who is brand conscious for comb.he d nly guy among us who had clothes or accessories from every brand and d nly investement from his wallet was for his clothes n clothes. Jus coz of dis he never paid mess fees and alwaz we had to include his expenses on any outing from our budget only and we never complained coz we were used to such thngs. It doesn’t mean he was worthless n hopeless. His vocab and word power was sumthng he never boasted of but jus full marks for that. He was a music buff n movie freak but only those from western part n no hindi movies or music.d nly guy who alwaz was updated like as if he is some operating system n we got to download n update evrytime. I have never seen handwriting d way he had.it was so cute n delicate that u wud get confused wheather it is some ms word font or wat? Right from his bathroom sleepers costing some 2000 to his undies costing 1000 he was a mobile brand shop. His bro preet along wd two elder sisters were in blore studying and his eldest sis was happily married to a successful techie in Mumbai and preet n runa were well paid by their firm after they completed their btech.his dad has now retired from pwd n he made sure to keep an eye on his children and he gave his best.his mumaa wud all alone visit him in college and even to blore she travelled alone and dis sacrifice and hard times she or they went thru for their children had no doubt well paid much more than they expected.he was sort of looser for many of us but today he made it big.cheers to ur success. Ppl tend to njoy loads and take thngs for granted thru out but a u turn make thngs tune on their music and dats exactly dis dude got right. We had many fights including serious ones but I am nt d guy wd ego coz I knew dat frnds r d only thng I have.
No marks for guessing how much I miss my best phase of life I spent wd some ass holes.1500 days matters a lot to any sensible human being.those 4 years were full of scenes n events but d final year was more or less “carnival oof emotions”. Once I was clear about set backs thngs took u-turn n dat was d second last chapter of my life.last one is still awaited. Perhaps those ass holes were d only thing I cud alwaz boast of and I wud feel secured in their presence even inside the Taliban headquarter or ladens basement room in abbotabad.u say and here u get it was d reputation of we asses back their and jus coz of these asses I cud stay their for so long otherwise I m like “chandryaan” alwaz orbiting and wandering in a no were to space.
I remember dat day when things collided for me and shattered every single hope of mine. But dis college was more or less a resto cum pub for me.i did bend many rules and so called do’s. I was nt glued to onethng rather took thngs as they came .no fucking rule was above my wishes. As usual kuns was close to me like a gay and rest of asses were nt so close like gay but ya close like eyes and eyelashes. I was considered as a nightmare for my juniors and jus coz of me they wud think and act and alwaz wished, when d last day wud come and I will move.i was stupid u knw. Useless issues and scenes were my hobbies and later on I realized that how much my juniors loved me n still they respect me.they cud have easily shown me their middle finger coz they knw dat m nt gonna all d way to college and teach them a lesson but dats wat I realized in last few days.love them,love my juniors, offo better wud be love my kiddo bros.
I took full advantage of my freedom.i and everyone knew dat wateva I do any action against me wud be never enough to tteach me a lesson. U say n I will agree to wat all I dint do in college and wateva punishment one can imagine was introduced to me but as I said I gave a shit n alwaz believed dat “darr ke aage jeet hai”.
Ashish was my roomie and I njoyed his company alwaz.my room was like a bunker for terrorists to carry on their activities. Ladu’s room was control room were hi-profile decisions were made presided by chief justice of college, laddu. It was his room were all issues were handled or tampered with.wardens?? r u kidding?? Now whos dat?? Kaun warde?? Was our attitude so I needn’t introduce his duty and how he fulfilled his duty??
Almost everyday my evenings wud be at yeda mile or tarini and after returning to campus it was badoni’s dhaba turn to get assaulted n d platform for hindi cum English skit till late night. He was alwaz fed up of my activities but dare he ask or say or complain me anything. Whenever I entered inside d campus some of the junior wud see and call to his hostel to inform his batchmates to stay in their room till I get to my room.. once I was full talli and after entering d campus jus uselessly abused and misbehaved wd abhijeet and blamed laddu for nothng and after getting back to my room I punched d mirror in rajiv’s balcony whch was d nly mirror to look n check our appearance. Corridor was full of blood and I got severe cuts in my right hand. I was taken to hospital and whole night I stayed in mba college widot any phone. During my final year madhu mam came close to me and she was my savior when it came to b punished. I never had a fight wid my batchmates and I was quite in jolly mood most of d times.
Lets get back to asses. Kuns alwaz stood by my side be it wrong or right.he was next to me widot giving a shit and thot. Coz of me he spoilt his relationship wd many guys but he never had any regret. Wateva situations u can imagine one can be into and he alwaz was geared up to to take bulk by horn. He was much more than a friend and brother. Most important dat he was not selfish n never said no to me atleast. Apart from undies we shared evry possible thing we cud. Perhaps he was d nly guy n still d nly guy who knows each tiny truth abt my life n he too had nothng left to share n he was open book to me. He alwaz checked wats right n wrong for me m he was d first person I wud seek advice about stuffs. Very punctual n systematic guy if he knws dat he wanna sleep then wateva wateva but he will get on his bed. He alwaz was ahead of sun in rising. He was no less than army men when it comes to discipline and principles.just coz of his firm participation in wateva he did he was hot favourite among us. He was famous as a teacher.during semesters he wud spend his whole day in library, not studying but teaching his batchmates or juniors and he alwaz made d concepts very much clear to whoever seeks his advice. D most fantastic thing abt him and only him was dat he was alwaz involved in evry sort of weird fun one wud do, be it by d loosers or toppers he was among the participants and at d end of day he maintained his 8 pointer tag. Everyone knew his love for sirjee n cricket. If by mistake also one wud say ill of sirjee then watch out carefully till u don’t get ur passing certificates. I alwaz felt secured wd him and tried to spend maximum tym wd him. He was and will be my darling alwaz. He neva showed wat he dint owned and alwaz managed his monthly expenses used to be few hundreds only n he still managed widot any problems and he neva asked a single penny even to anybody as far as I know. He neva feared anyone coz he knew dat he is nt wrong and never bowed his head down and eyes coz he believed dat he is no way less than anybody and u say n ppl will agree wd u. thr were two conditions when he wud beat up anyone anytime wd closed eyes: 1)if his heart is wd his mins 2)if sumone hurt me or said against me. I cudnt do a single thng for him.many chances were thr when I cud have done so much but it was my selfishness whch pulled me back.
Kaushal was someone wd immense potential and creativity.he too cared a lot abt me and due to my attitude he alwaz wanted to spent time wid me. Trio of lothu..jhaji..legend was famous in college u can say.punit alwaz had to pay the price for my closeness wd kaushal. Kaushal was a day scholar and his absence in hostel campus was very much missed bt at tyms I thot dat its gud to maintain a certain distance as I have seen in my life thngs getting worst after u r possessive abt someone. I never went to his house coz of his roomies.they wud have never said anything but I dint feel comfortable in their presence and when he was alone then nly I wud prefer to visit him.
Our hostel was d most happening place on Sundays which witnessed atleast 10 to 15 cricket matches in d campus in wateva space we got. I was known as aggressive fast bowler on field and dis attitude helped me to demoralize batsmen many tyms but at tyms it did fire back. Though I lost my stamina nd that fire as d time keep on pacing. But wid two step run-up I was able to fire wd d pace others used to after long run-up. Yorker was my strength and due to my height I cyd bowl 6 yorkrs in any over. My hattrick in branch match against IT in my very first year made ma d most feared bowler and most sought by teams and even I was asked to captain d best team of college “DGEN-X”.DIS WAS D DREAM TEAM OF EVERY PLAYER IN COLLEGE and I was proud enuf to be a regular member of dis team under the captaincy of sopan. U cud nt make out the difference between him n msd. He was an allrounder and on any given dy cud destroy the batting line up of any team. He led d team till d end wd pride n honour wd short clashes n diplomacy as that’s common evrywere. We never won by luck or chance rather it was our performance n commitment to d game. Few of d rebels formed a team strong enuf to beat us as they were may be jealous or wat and honestly they did beat us many tyms and I wud blame d mind games and lobbies working against our unity. If u ignore small issues n losses then we were immortal on the field.
From very first day we met, deo group was d most happening lot of people. Ladu was d guy I was possessive about. I alwaz made him as if he is made for me and a lil ignorance by his side wud make me feel ditched. I don’t knw he had unforgettable times wd me or not bt one thng I knew dat he alwaz cared for me. Those short trips wid him and hw can I forget dat six right over my head off a pacy Yorker ball.dat was d first and last tym I bowled him and he won that. I wud alwaz cherish d trip to bbsr wd him n pinak wd tag “zindagi naa milegi doobara”. We stayed for thre days and spent 20k only on drinking n grooving. Pal heights used to be our drstination after sunset and deepali wud wrap up wd d late night drinks. Not a single non-veg dish was left by pinak on d menu card followed by three tequila shots. I had to clean his mess whole night. Thrown out from two exits of same orifice, nt to be mentioned here. Laddu was on d row alwaz feeding each moment in his nokia e-series and dat was a big hit back in college among d asses.evry guy had a typical x-factor which made them stand out of d crowd.kuns was alwaz known as a consultant and tutor when it came to studies.karu for web designings n all sort of creative computer works.kaua was mobile brand shop.his typical attitude m hairstyle alwaz kept him aloof from normal humans.crazy for soccr n wud gang up wd those who can tolerate his antics n regular size.
Abhishek aka jiju..geek..gamer..wounded lover.a big time self declared looser and very unpractical. He was alwaz criticized by others coz he wanted to b d centre of attraction. His gurl sonali, my sister was more or less similar to him and theirs was d most controversial relationship I came across in those years. He was a puzzled guy and never cud we even guess as wats going thru in his head?
Asif, d true lover.a fighter who conquered his love, by being true pious n honest to his burning desires and commitments towards sadaf. A very sensible guy n more than close to ladu since very first day. I still remember that evening when we were on our way to town from campus when he told me one of the most hurting truth of my life in first year. He was d most purified heart guy I met and had no grudges wd whatsoever anyone. A very down to earth guy and he had some principles in his life which for us is very tough to follow.
I can proudly say that ya I had friends m alwaz felt secured widot giving a thot…jus go n bang!! We were alwaz prepared for d worst coz we knew dat we r gonna land up in worst but those worst situations neva screwed up rather we screwed them. We had some bitter moments as well together but they mly stremgthned our bond.
Oops! I left karalite,akky! Simple n spomtaneous wd alwaz dat banana chips trademark smile.alwaz ready to help u wateva u say apart from cleaning ur potty!! Everyday we had new plans..new researchs..new joint ventures..new story..new plan..new goal..new gurl n list goes on. Those priceless moments are in d safest part of my heart.
I was traced wheneva we had some fearful n bold issues. I cud say dat I was d only guy who defended my juniors while 100 final year students were circling him .it was me who holded his hand n dat was enuf to tell my batchmates dat get back to ur beds.
Widot mentioning sum awesome ladies dis is incomplete. My bhabhis and sisters alwaz respected me and I will alwaz b honoured for their gesture. Swayanka ladu’s lady respected me from heart and cared for me very much.to add she felt secured wid me alwaz. Not by mistake also I ever thot sumthng stupid abt her.i wud stand against those who in wateva ways hurt her or spoke bad. Though she is my bhabhi but still ours was a pious bond and I cud hardly look into her eyes. My sis or u can say karu’s lady was a kiddo but mature mind u. she alwaz complained of karu n even scolded me for my issues she came to knw now n then. Sonali, abhishek’s lady too respected me and mostly shared her problems concerned to abhishek wd me. She had great hopes from me on her relationship front wid abhishek. Though I m no one to order her to do dis or don’t do dat but still her closeness to abhishek’s rival alwaz pinched me .
Ruche d most eligible bachelor in college n in last 3 semesters she was rarely in touch wd me. Her link up stories alwaz disturbed me and practically I cudnt go and fight wd everyone so I ignored her stuffs. Tarumita, punit’s lady relied a lot on me but only when she had some issues wd punit.
I came to know later dat most of d gurls were scared of me coz they knew dat may be he is rude n stiff.though
I never even tried to hurt any gurl and was quite aloof of love kinda stuffs. I was known for my cricketing skills and for granted attitude. I can say that d way I have njoyed my college life perhaps no one wud have had so much awesome moments. Wheneva I had to go to blore which was certainly every month, I had to get into a grand preparation and I made sure to include weekends or weekly offs in my travel plan, so as to maintain my attendance in an equilibrium. I alwaz had to board d train to blore from palasa which was 50km by road from my campus and thr were 2 trains, yeswantpur exp at 7am and prashanti at 9am. D nly trains I ever observed to depart n arrive before timing alwaz. It used to be a busy schedule for me arranging thngs n stuffs and dat 24 hrs train journey all alone alwaz gave me an opportunity to discover myself. While returning one wud alwaz notice tears n red eyes as it was very tough to leave thngs behind which are a integral part of ur life.
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