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JITM: an ode to my "SENIORS" "JUNIORS" n "ASS HOLES WHO PASSED OUT IN 2011"

Gimme a single reason why I should not miss those four years??? If I sit down to sum up my phases of life then the most happening would be 2007-2011. What all I dint learnt and taught?? Gem of people were around me throughout.so different so varied culture we were a part of. One was from the assam n his roomie wud raise hands for chattisgarh. While the keralite too boasted of their spice legacy the biharis alwaz had their ego on sleeves. Guys from tata’s hub were full of lusture and toughness and those from the jharkand had it all when grey really made sound. No marks for guessing which native place I left here. You completely get dressed in the culture and soil of the place you spend a lot of time in. its like our second home and the feeling of at d end of day alwaz on the tip in those 4 years. Srikakulam to gaya was the boundary we were confined to. We all roamed and tripped withing this. Vacations and sem breaks were alwaz like a big project to wrap up. Initially no one was into e-ticketing and to go home we got to book tickets and a special day was assigned for that with all sort of pre planning. Who all will go?? How much one needs to pay? When we wil leave the campus and how?? Is thr any other appointment on the day with? And if yes then appointments can wait. Students life teaches to take care of everything and specially ur finances. We all hailed from middle-class and everyone want to save few bucks for all those happening which one cant discuss with their guardian who is sending them their expenses every month.there was a provision in our college though is almost everywere that during vacations college wil provide the students concession forms for booking sleeper tickets to go home. We all queued up with our travel partners as it was suggested to find out as many guys you can of the same route so that they can save paper and headaches. We got to travel 60kms for that and I never sought for that coz I knew that savings are not my cup of tea. Apart from once or twice I never had my tkts booked on time becoz all those were spent on partying and grooving with friends. I alwaz had to seek help from my friends or I should say they financed my travelogue. I was alwaz supported by all my friends, be it anybody they alwaz were thr when I needed some lessons to summarize (which was very rare and I don’t remember a single incident) or finance related or any miscellaneous event. Best friend and friend was the only concept which till date I could not het into my head. Though one thing is very true that all are not same for us, some dearer and others dearest. I too had d same scenario with me. but I would categorize honestly. Mind you I am sharing my personal feelings and no way some sort of “self-help” lessons for anyone. One group was with guys I was possessive about. Another was with I alwaz had ego and attitude conflict n last but not the least was “words would never tell you, how special are you!!! Look into my eyes” typo. For d last one I was very emotional. We both knew what we have behind the scenes and how much we care for each other without making sound. We never spoke of each other’s importance in our life but it showed without observing. But ya I must mention that I alwaz expressed that.their importance in my life when I was drunk. On any given day if I have gone thru any conversation or some exchange sort of business with any guy then I would ask him to come with me to pub were I would after 2 or 3 pegs are down start getting emotional and wet with tears. Even I would say them, “don’t think I am drunk”. And when we both are drunk then waaah!! That scene was not worth missing for all. We both would plan so many outings and holidays till we come over hangover that it will sound and smell of homosexuality. Darooo alwaz made me go nostalgic and yeah it made me Shakespeare as well many times but this was almost with everyone but I was used to avoid being in senses.

Lets sum up some of the moments which if shared would

bring shine in our eyes and watering mouths. Lets start with my very first grand gala drinking feast. Yup it was 2008, 2^nd august, my bday. Everyone knew that this day is gonna make the guys jhoom jhoom and bingo!!! Okie, it was a rainy day I guess and I made things clear to all that my party is confined till drinks and no lunch. Okie the venue was tarini, our fav hangout place. On the first floor there was a big verandah space with windows and chairs with tables. I alwaz preffered that place coz of it was spacious and gave secured vibes. We were 10 guys for the drinking feast and it was like drink till u die. After we wrapped up from thr we went on our fav spot or u can say square. It was the meeting place for the couples, batchelors or bewadaas. Most happening place in 100km radius with loads of shops which were full of wateva stuffs one wud need of daily course. So after drinking everytime we all headed to that square and nautankis and confessions would be on roll alwaz. That was Sunday so whole college was in town for their respective needs. Though I shud not mention this but just to describe it with clear space I am. That was our first year so we were not much friendly with our batchmates from other region and not very open to seniors as well so around 20 of us belonging to a common place packed that square with their photo session poses. We all were drunk and njoying a lot. I do have those pics posted in my album at facebook. That was the only occasion o had some snaps and that also to load in my facebook album as I dint had much pics. With different poses and groups and locations we had a nice time with zooming lenses. It was well past 9 at nght when we returned and the most awesome thing was that I had to shift my room to another hostel that very night. We wasted our money as carrying suffs to hotel 3 made us sweat and that’s it for the day and ya in morning no one had any hangover type feelings. I cant share each and every moment I went to drink coz everytym was a new skit after drinking and the frequency was very very pacy. My equation with warden was like “dare u punish me”. I still thank my warden panigrahi sir for not calling my dad. All the scenes I created after drinking was more than enough to force anyone to complain to my parents but just coz of my behavior he never went ahead to take any action. Ya undertaking seemed to be our birth right and one would say “thank-god” only undertaking. Whatever I did was confined till few words on a paper and clipped in a stick file only not to be taken care of in future. And my dialogues were simple like “I wont repeat whatever I have done today”, hey dude u raped or killed or wat u did?? But warden sir never noticed. He was like drink everyday but don’t create scene and I was initially okie with that but when we got the senior tag it was like drink but don’t enter the campus gate. Juniors were an easy prey for me each time I got drunk and they had no option apart from “le lo sirjee”. Each time I was drunk I cried. Be it with kuns,ladus,kauas,karus,akkis or anyone. Whoever met me first he wud have to listen to me and gimme a shoulder to cry. And that would be something like open book.

One thing I would confess that just coz of I was drunk I called ruchi and made her my sister. I had crush on her but I took care of that bond till last day.everytime on cell someone would be there on other side to take my nuisance and next morning I would ask kunal or my roomies about what all I did last night?? I would enter to some room and with tears in my eyes I would hug them and prove that how important they are for me and I am incomplete without them. The truth day was alias name of the day I got drunk. I wont lie after drinking and I wont speak in hindi as well. Perhaps this made my English spoken strong. Everytime a new drama and new issues. Even many times I had issues with gurls, accusing them of something which sounded like “I am a great lover who tolerates ur antiques”. If am not able to speak my heart out on normal days and had many things cropping in my mind then I would make the drinking day a judgement day. What good it did I don’t know but ya it did ruin many things for me. I never wanted to sit with wide open eyes. My life was lake of uncertainities that I couldn’t bear the hard truth of my life. I had no achievements but ya loads of lessons I had back then. Drinking made my strong bond weaken with my friends and at tyms I would just hit myself. I was famous for my anger and hot head and listening no or something which is not happening according to my wishes was enough for me to pour fires. Even during cricket if someone misfielded on my bowling then he would start saying sorry before I started. I did spoiled my cricketing career and stamina. Nothing ever went according to the plan but yeah I must say many time si did make the music follow my tunes.

D LONGEST DRIVE OF MY LIFE:

D LONGEST DRIVE OF MY LIFE:

finally i can move to cloud nine for which i have waited uncountable nights planning. lets go from head to toe and from it all started for me.while back in college we had to go to 60 kms bu bus to board our train to home and that was through state highway single road. we had to board our train from a place palasa which was a small station but of huge importance to the link of north east and south india.on the outskirts of palasa u wud find along the national highway connecting eastern states to the southern india. alwaz buzing wd traffic and very busy. i alwaz dreamed of driving my fav SUV wod my lady sitting next to me and then sorry for interruption but i used to get lost in my own world, i alwaz shared dis fantasy wd my lady and she alwaz said that its imposible for her to come wd me on a week holiday but i dint gave up and kept on forcing her only to get her nodd one day.

she knew dat her parents wud not allow her but she lied to he rparents to fulfill my wishes n dat was my last and first wish i made to her and i dont know wat made her turn my dream into reality?? she lied at home about convocation ceremony and this was something no parent wud ask her ward to skip and she was no exception.bingo! though her dad asked to come wd her but she told that she is wd her friend and wat will her dad do among all d gurls as she was part of a girls college during her graduation academics.even i handed her a ticket of jodhpur howrah train showing all d details as to make her parents feel relax,she also told them that her frnds wud join her at sasaram. i was on constant touch wd her and according to our plan she had to deboard at dehri-on-sone which was an hour journey rom gaya.around 7 am she waas waiting for me at station in dehri and i wanted her to wait for and see her reaction and i jus wanted to see her degree of insecurity when i m nt around her. i cud see her eyes searching for a familiar face all around in d vicinity and as time passed i cud sense her heavy breathng and then i jumped and appeared only to welcome by some red eyes and tears hanging on d edge to roll down.

i honestly wanted to run n hug her in my arms to make her feel secure but she is still someone who cant reveal her passionate concernt for somebody among the strangers and dis made her stand out of the crowd.i cud hardly resist taking her in my arms and making her feel my warmth.though thr was no need to take a nap and shower before moving ahead but i jus wanted to be more into her world so i booked 2 rooms in a nearby hotel and when she told that she cudnt go in a hotel. offcourse no one knows her but dats the difference between her and rest of d gurls. i assured her that we only got to take shower and take a short nap before moving ahead.after we wrapped up pre-preparton leg i waited for her at the reception only to get my mouth wide open till she dint notice me. i dnt remember each beautiful gurls face but dis one i willl never forget for sure. she was wearing a light green herum wid a chequr shirt ot kurta wd hairs playing the perfect add on.she was stunning and i was out of dis world and it took me a while to notice the public place. dat instant evrythng seemed to halt and give me full access to her aura and essence. as usual like its common sight in our country that if a gurl is a lil bit sober by her looks then u cant count d heads she wud turn. its really awesum to say that the gurl i love is d most beautiful and no one can argue over dis as those people are special for us and cant afford to hear sumthng against them. i am not the only person who goees ga-ga over her appearance. each time and each day i am falling deeper n deeper for her.each ticking hand is penetrating me more into her world. when our eyes and soul makes someone so special that we learn to discard everythng for them.

it was my toyota fortunner which was shining as i everyday spent few hours cleaning n polishing d white giant. BR2Q-0003 is the number it goes by with white stunning shine. i have alwaz been fascinated by the SUV\’s and this is something people drool over. it was perfect scene for a ladyinside the cockpit wd no left over smell of my marlboros and happydents rather i cud see her trying to feedback the scent she was about to get used to. my fortu was fortunate enuf to recieve compliments from my lady. it was ghulam ali saab making the scenarion inside wd her presence toxicated and i cud see her nodding her head and appreciating my choice of number perfect for d moment.i was still not able to believe that she is only wid me and only i cud see her smile,laugh,sleep,talk and no one else. it was d best example of possesiveness.

may be it was the scenario which made her untie her long hairs which made me smile, yeah wicked one. she replaced her wrist wd d hairs wrapped by hairband. now i was staring wd mouth open as if this is d first time i am seeing some gurl do dat. yeah it was and she noticed my stare and cudnt avoid the expression which shows still indian women y r considered stick to their soil. she was looking at her palm wd eyelashes helping in dis. oh!! those untied long hair, that angel who wud even surpass the beauty of greek godesses, wat else i cud have asked almighty?? she knew why i was staring at her like dis and she knew but wanted to hear about her beauty and i had full vocab of adjectives ready to rush on d tip of my tongue. now she pulled my ears whch gave me goose bumps and asked me to drive properly. how can one drive like dis when wat u wud ask for is not to set the world in ur feet but just a few moments wid het.she was sitting wd her legs on d seat wd ease which i wanted to say her. i jus wanted to make her feel comfortable n feel secure.

i dont know why she came wd me?? she knows i love her and i dont know that she loves me or wat but still somethng was there sort of natural power as a barrier between us. it was 2001 when last time i touched her hands and its been more than a decade my fingers felt her. i was like sleeping wd my head in her lap and looking at two moons at a time, the nearer being the most beautiful.i wished dis journey be never come to a halt. i was alwaz making my hands placed constantly on the gear jnob and tapping the top only to bring her attention to dat so that she might unstand my intentions and come press my hand making me content. though she had nothng of dat sort as she hardly loooked thr and kept on looking outside and pointing sumthng peculiar. now she was looking at me with her body turned towards me wid her legs on the seat.her hairs making the perfect background similar to black clouds make for the moon. i dint wantd to look at the road n drive as she was alwaz turning me left and i was bound to get attracted towards her.

those three magical words were finally into her years and for the first time she dint reacted to it but turned her head other side.any comments??? all she cud say was,\” u alwaz knew my answer to dis\”. i was now pacing the accelerator pad and wanted to show her that i am angry and reacting to the moment whch is not in my favour. she started feeling sleepy and i reduced the volume to 10 and i cud see her face responding to the comfortable zone i arranged for her. she alwaz spoke so much and sarcastically on phone but when we r face to face there is nothing much to say. its nothing curious for me when she says every now and then about making me unstand the usual distance.

i could only stare at her while she was cuddled in the seat next to me and her hairs waving slightly wd d air from blower. her thousand expressions wd d falling rays on her face and then rays scanned through the leaves and comin on her face. and again back to her smiling loving ways. i dint want her to wake up until she is done with the restlessness. i was taking care that neither i honk too much nor drive rashly only to wake her up and then offcourse i cudnt stare at her the way while she was sleeping. time is immortal as they say and u cant put it to halt and it can never get back to d same spot it came across. i wanted everythng against the law of nature. i cud never look into her eyes and i dint had dat much of guts to stare wid deep penetration in her eyes and make her unstand wat n why dis heart of mine beats for??

we jus crossed allahabad and its a breezy evening here and we r no way gonna lodge night here wereas i wud settle for kanpur in few hours. it was now dark and lights were on. all the heave vehicles plying on d road shud be made compulsion to use the dipper at night and if u dint do then there shud be some provisions to tackle these. wid each passing vehicle light from d front she was taking a sigh of relief and at tyms when the powerful rays hit her eyes i wud start abusing them and she wd red eyes wud warn me to get this right for d last time and each tym she did and i too did coz i loved her concerns for my mistakes and her rectifyng flaws and it gave me a sense of security that ya she is thr to be by my side n check me. it doesnt give me a vibe of possesiveness in anyway and at tyms she wud say its ur life do wateva u want and this wwwud make me feel down and lonely. i cud never stand aloof of her and wateva i did or thot was somewere connected to her and influenced by her perception about me. i knew thr will be no hindi movie the-end for me but i wish i wud b a character alwaz applauded at d end of day for \”happily ever after\” endings wd clapping all around.

it was d bang on when i wokeup and found myself in a small clinic. there were few people all around me staring at me wid loads of question in their mind. i cud see my condition as it was blood all over wid bandaids patch work from head to toe. after i failed to convince her for cuming wd me as she was bold enuf and clear enuf that she is no way anythng other than friend and if i keep on doing stupid thngs like treating her as my life partner in messages and texts then she wud delete me from her friends list. i did ask her sum stupid questions only to burst her out wid anger at me and y d helll she wud answer to me??? this is d thng i was not able to get into my head since long. she alwaz said this but i thot pious feelings n love can change d moulds and it was not d same sort of reaction dis time.it was strong n strict enugh to tell me dat she no more can take my antiques so better go easy or change d path. paths are chosen keeping in mind the destination in sight but this whole life dats the only thing i cudnt make out. she will be alwaz my first and last wish wheneva i look to almighty wd hopes in my eyes and hands trying to trap his virtual blesssings.

life is all about moving on, chak de!! but but but wat if life no more wants to change the size n shape of shadow it forms. why i shud take all these tantrums of life when i have alwaz been either gud or bad..she is not here wd me but i dream only of hers.she hates me like she hates people who have ditched her. but i know my words cant comfort her on a bond front and i will alwaz regret this dat i cudnt raise my bar to the level she wud appreciate. its actually something like we are not in that much touch sort of thing so that i could really convince her in anyway but i know love is all about wat u feel for d person thr on d opposite side of the bank and no force is applicable here in any way. i dont wanna give airs to her problems and dont wanna be a reason to her woes and anythng which is not accepted. she alwaz feels wateva i say as dialogues but how to make her unstand that its simple like a fragnance in rose.

if she thinks that i am gonna give up then excuse me u got to change the way u think and then jus wait n watch. in no way i am, gonna give up wandering all around her and even feel her aura all around. she has been thru many tough times wd loads of ups n downs but i was no were in d scene that tym or wud have made thngs work according to her.

I still remember the initial days of my degree course when I left my place and wd loads of dreams and hopes I started a journey which was alwaz the only wish and expectation of my parents since they saw me step on dis earth. That was 2007 d year which decided my destiny and fate. Some of the happening moments of my life took place that year influencing in a positive as well as negative manner. Losses cudnt get transformed till date for good and all what I gained was not fruitful and still so. May be my clever decisions and not emotional perception would have made things different today and that’s for good.

It was april and I along with my friend anand who also was my tenant who shared the single room set with baban bhaiya who was a nice guy but I wud say selfish according to my point of view. Me and anand were on the way for Mumbai by hwh-mum mail when a lightning struck me devastating my whole clan and specially maternals. “pappumama” who was d most educated and disciplined and full of principles man was no more. From ash to phoenix he rised and helped others rise. His son was 6 months and daughter 2 yrs when he left us. He was the country manager of Nepal in aristo and later state divisional officer in mankind for bihar and Jharkhand.,most loved and sought among who all knew him. Its difficult to trace even a single small flaw in that man, not coz after dying we show sympathy to them but god knows.

It was mughalsarai around 9am when I thot to talk to dad and inform him abt my well being. I was in toilet when got a call from my cousins asking me were I am and when I told on my way to Mumbai then they hung saying talk to me later. I thought it was jus a random call and dint think much. When I called dad someone else picked the call and when I introduced my dad took the call and while crying I heard the worst news of my life till date. A truck ran over him and one more guy while they were on bike but by gods grace the other guy after few days in hospital was back to job. It was in dumka and that very day destroyed dreams and future of many of us. He had high hopes with me and he cudnt see me going to a engineering college as it was april and I went college in august. He was not with me but I determined that may be someday I would offer a better lifestyle to his kids. I have lived with him and shared a lot with his kids and I was right there present at the birth of his son so I was very much attached to them. His wife mamijee too alwaz had hopes but she deserves a patt on her back for the courage she has showed and she is on right track with her kids and she don’t need anyone to show sympathy with her and practically this is true. Both kids are now in patna in good school though they are still in kindergarten but they are on very right track. I don’t know what all the future will show but I wish I cud do something least for them.

When people leave us behind someday shattered and drowned in tears then we too someday not forget but as we get busy with the time their memories fade away and we learn to live without them with no complains wat so ever.with hopes touching the sky I was all set to start my professional life and my dad gave his best shot to get me the best launch pad possible. That time I was not alone, I had memories and a lady waiting behind who cudnt agree with this parting ways of ours. I met her in august and we hardly were together for 2 weeks when I had to leave for college and this made her sad.she banked on me in just ten days that she started crying in my absence and I thanked god for such a wonderful partner. I felt lucky and content. But time shows you every sort of shadows and welcomed me with some events which was not coincident rather planned somewere.

It was just 2 months of our relationship when she came in my life. She is the gurl who loved me the most after my parents and my soul knows that. She was a gurl full of ideology and principles but just to be with me she gave a shit to all those things. She was very strict and very rude but she changed for me and that took me by surprise. A gurl famous for being hardwater throughout her academics was now falling for a guy and that was when I realized how much she loves me?? she was alwaz ready to change herself from any view just for me and that was the toughest moment life showed me. one lady was wid me when I was alone and came college and another was the oldest friend of mine and she came back after 5 yrs in my life, I was devastated as I dint wanted to loose anyone among them. I took this for granted and to be honest went on with both till diwali same year when one of my closest buddy made me unstand that whatever I was doing was not fair.actually I needed time to figure out the right direction of my beats waves and to be honest I was not that strong and honest to do that immediately.the lady waiting back at home for me was getting closer to me and there were many moments we had to compromise,infact I dint want her to do that so it was alwaz my call to adjust my world according to her and see that in this materialistic world our love too is not tagged as materialistic.for her there ought to be a proof everytime of my love for her.be it chatting over phone till she sleeps or making her aware of each and everything I did. I also had issues with her net friend who was from Mumbai and due to him we alwaz had issues and finally dat guy stepped back and she too for my sake stopped being in touch wid him, only to get into a much stronger bond later on.but that is completely different story. I alwaz had this conflict within to prove myself how much she means to me and what all I can do for her and how??? Simply u got to display ur feelings on a large screen to assure her my commitment and this alwaz created a problem but that’s what life is all about for everyone. No doubt I loved her like anything and dint wanted to wait a single second after am free from college to meet her.

She came back with a bang after 5 years and I was like wow!! As I mentioned she was the gurl who loved me without conditions and never wanted me to compromise as this was her role.she was so smooth going that she never had any conditions, swears or wateva to prove her bond and this was the best thing about her. In dis materialistic world she was still very practical and I needn’t mention how much she owed me.it was she who was supposed to get angry,avoid me and kisses, take for granted and all the antiques gurls have but it was the other way. For me she from very first day started compromising and changing herself to my terms which we rarely see or hear a gurl doing. This is enough to tell the world how much she was attached to me inspite of thousands of miles between our steps and 1500 sunsets and sunrises we cudnt share was enough void created to forget each other. She used to ask what I want not the other way and I took advantage of her love by playing emotionally with her.she just wanted to be wid me and nothing else but at times I was very rude with her but she never complained. For me she stopped talking to her school friend who once used to be my buddy. Ashish had nokia 7610 cellphone and she used to call on that and never complained of low balance as that time calls were not so cheap with attractive plans and that too it was inter-state. She was that time in blore wid her friend for internship. Amitesh my closest chuddy buddy though wanted me to be loyal but now I realize when my world was blown away and me standing alone in an arid desert without a trace of life, that truth doesn’t triumphs alwaz. That fine evening a day or two before diwali I was about to confess with both ladies knowing the consequences that I might loose her or that would weaken our bond. But I don’t know what to say about the confession as it was honest and most suitable thing to do at that point or I should not have obeyed wateva amy asked me to.this guy never ever wanted anyone to go down in life and still he gives his best shot to bring things to track, be it anyone concerned to him.i got a guardian in him as I knew and all friends knew that wateva he will suggest or say is ethically correct coz he never uttered nuisance and back bitching. This quality of his still make him stand out in the crowd. So, I knew he wanted me to be nice and loyal with them and as they say its not alwaz fruitful to sail in two boats. I could only remember she was begging and crying to me to stay with her and gave me options regarding wateva I will say she will do. It was diwali night I shattered her dreams and left her crying and hurting herself.she was admitted in hospital as she cut her veins after that.her roomie cudnt believe that a gurl like her can do this for a guy who gave her perhaps the biggest blow of life. That was turning point for her life and mine happiness. My happiness turned on d verge of pains and tears and her life got back on track with her determination and I salute her for that. After that fateful diwali night she never ever tried to contact me or know about me by mistake also. Now it was the real tantrum now to bring my love to my terms which amy did for me. gurls are very delicate to handle truths and she was devastated perhaps and stopped talking only to get into again after a week with amy doing the patch work.

She couldn’t forgive me for wateva I did on diwali night with her and as I mentioned she was very very nice human being full of principles and idols. She once made herself unstand of anything then no supernatural power even can make her go reverse. When I was all alone and had nothing to cheer in life I started tracing her. So selfish I was that I hate myself for this till date. I ruined my life looking into the mirror and went on doing till the image dint get into pixel form.i was on d brink of finishing my life when I traced her but after messaging and mailing her she dint even bothered to revert and I could never get to know what she exactly think of me now. Through her college mates I tried to reach her many times and my messages too reached her but as I told how much determined her thoughts are. That was very shaky phase of my life when a lil bit of setback could finish me off and I cant express in words how much I needed her to be thr by my side. But I was being punished for what I did with her once and how much she paid for loving me, god was very fair with her. I agree I deserved that phase. Time is so strong that it brings you right there were you made someone once suffer.i had no one by my side to give a shoulder or even show sympathy to me.hours I used to sit in dark with smoke all around and think of her and I started hating myself and hurting myself. I couldnot make it out the correct one for my life is not something glittering and shining but it can be anything which soothes ur soul. That mistake done 5 yrs back is still haunting my life and will keep on haunting till I m nt dead. I betrayed someone’s true love and god is very fair and no way partial, he made me pay for that which is still counting till date. Perhaps these words here are coz of the mistake I committed back then. When u r filled wid guilt and pain wid tears u need somebody to share a fraction of those to subsidize the trauma and what if no one is there to share??? Then is when these words come to rescue and look I got so many or handful only to share the trauma. I don’t know and haven’t yet thought that is sharing so effective??? Obviously it doesn’t bring things on track but it tells others about the path u have been through in due course. I guess its something insuring your memories and yaadein. Very few are though insured which at any given time in future floats in ur mind and have been a major catalyst to change the scenes for you.

As they say, almighty is always fair and its true: we just need to react at the moment when he drops our moment. Its we who got to grabb the scene and some really do and some cudnt make it at the right time.am a living example . there is no single work which is not risky!! Some get through the edges and others too get through but on the other side.spiritually, speaking; its been our good deeds perhaps that we are here as human. But who knows?? I cant go for doing good deeds just coz I wanna be a great man in my next birth. Who is bothered about the happiness or pain or tears once he or she is no more here??? Life is no way like dates and months and weeks which will keep on getting back and back so that you got to rectify ur mistakes. Its like gone with the wind only to move ahead and dude clock hands never look back!! I have brutally wasted my life and realized when in no way I could get there again to mend things. I was blessed with some jubilious moments but certain things are so special that u got to work a lot for them. I know dat my life has been somewat like “jannat” if if and only if…it was such a drastic turnaround of events for me that I was never used to take things in bulk which wud for sure affect ur life either ways. I wont be able to get back to terms sooner or lately. Its been the biggest and a huge loss for me. no one is responsible for anything which happened to me rather it was me and only me who made the clouds rain.

X-FACTORS OF OUR INDIA:

a try from my side by referring \”the week\” to sum up the extreme places of india..

METAL DETRACTOR:

v MOST CORROSIVE PLACE IN INDIA:

Ø Shriharikota off the Andhra coast

v RATE OF CORROSIVENESS:

Ø 1.6mm of an iron bar in a year.

v TEMPERATURE:

Ø Always hot peeking at 45 degrees Celsius in summer.

v IMPORTANCE:

Ø Home to india’s only satellite launch centre

v HOW TO GET THERE:

Ø 80 km from Chennai and nearest station is sulurpet

LINES BY ANCESTORS:

v OLDEST HUMAN IMPRINT:

Ø Bhimbetka, MADHYA PRADESH

v ALTITUDE:

Ø 267 mts.

v HOW TO REACH:

Ø One hour drive from bhopal

v SEASON TO VISIT:

Ø Monsoon and winter

SURVIVAL AT -45 DEGREES:

v COLDEST INHABITED PLACE:

Ø Drass, JAMMU n KASHMIR

v ELEVATION:

Ø 3230 mts. Above sea level

v MINIMUM TEMPERATURE:

Ø -45 degree Celsius, with a record of -60 degrees in 1995

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø Area get cutoff by October. Either locals or army men allowed during the winters. Tourist season is may and September

LAND SWIMMING UNDER WATER:

v LOWEST LYING AREA:

Ø Kuttanad, KERALA

v ELEVATION:

Ø 2.2 mts. Below sea level

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø Monsoons when water level rises

v HOW TO REACH:

Ø 90 mints by road and 40 mins by speedboat from KOCHI

WAITING FOR THE WATER DROPLET:

v DRIEST PLACE:

Ø Jaisalmer, RAJASTHAN

v ELEVATION:

Ø 229 mts. Above sea level

v RAINFALL:

Ø 12.4 mm of rainfall this season

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø For extreme heat visit in may or june. Tourist months are October to march

v HOW TO REACH:

Ø Six hour drive from jodhpur along NH-14 n NH-15

SHARP ON TIME:

v MOST PRECISE:

Ø IST timeline passes through mirzapur, U.P.

v ELEVATION:

Ø 80 mts. Above sea level

v VISITING TIME:

Ø October to march

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø 2 hour drive from Varanasi along NH-2 and NH-7

WATER WATER EVERY WERE:

v WETTEST PLACE ON EARTH:

Ø Mawsynram, MEGHALAYA

v ANNUAL PRECIPITATION:

Ø 11,872 mm. it received 26,000 mm of rain in 1985

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø monsoon

v HOW TO REACH:

Ø 3-4 hrs. of scenic drive from shillong.

MID-POINT OF NO MAN’S LAND:

v UNPOPULAR CENTRE POINT:

Ø Centre point of india,karondi village,MADHYA PRADESH

v CO-ORDINATES:

Ø 23 degree 30 minute 48 second NORTH, 80 degrees 19 minutes 53 seconds east

v ELEVATION:

Ø 390 mts above sea level

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø 65 km. road trip with dirt track from Jabalpur

SHRINKING LAND:

v LARGEST RIVERINE ISLAND:

Ø Majauli,ASSAM

v TOTAL GEOGRAPHICAL AREA:

Ø 1256 sq. km.

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø To see migratory words, in winter and monsoon to experience the x-factor

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø Few hour ferry ride from nimatighat, the river port 12km away from jorhat town

DEADLY POISON:

v MOST POLLUTED:

Ø Vapi, GUJARAT

v ELEVATION:

Ø 25 Mts. Above sea level

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø Five n a half drive from amdavad.frequent trains from amdavad and surat

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø Its polluted throughout so completely ur call!!

TERRIFYING TERRITORY:

v LARGEST RIVER DELTA IN INDIA AND THE LARGEST TIDAL MANGROVE FOREST IN THE WORLD:

Ø Sunderbans, WEST BENGAL

v TEMPERATURE:

Ø 37-42 IN SUMMER AND 9-29 IN WINTERS

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø 4 hr. Ride on terrible road from Kolkata to gosaba(last settlement before forest starts) and then 90 mints. Ferry ride.

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø Monsoon and as tourist in winter

DORMITORY DISTRICT:

v MOST POPULATED DISTRICT:

Ø Thane, MAHARASHTRA

v POPULATION:

Ø 1,10,54,131

v POPULATION GROWTH:

Ø 35 % OVER LAST 10 YEARS

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø 36 km from mumbai

v TIME TO VISIT:

Ø Known for trekking sites so monsoon

SCORCHING HEAT:

v HOTTEST PLACE:

Ø Churu, RAJASTHAN

v TEMPERATURE:

Ø 50 DEGREE PLUS IN SUMMER

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø 7 hr. drive from delhi along NH-65

v BEST VISIT TIME:

Ø May and june

WIND’S PARADISE:

v WINDIEST PLACE IN INDIA:

Ø Rammakkalmedu, KERALA

v ELEVATION:

Ø 1207 mts. Above sea level

v AVG. ANNUAL WIND SPEED:

Ø 30.3 km/hr

v WAY TO REACH

Ø Scenic 5 hr. drive from kocchi

v VISITING TIME:

Ø June to august

ULTRA PROTECTION:

v MOST PROTECTED:

Ø Sir creek

v TEMPERATURE:

Ø Above 40 throughout the year

v HUMIDITY:

Ø Above 90%

v ELEVATION:

Ø Sea level

v WAY TO REACH:

Ø Special permit from BSF required.

YOUTH-istan rocks!!!

YOUTH SUMMIT

IT IS SOMETHING I WOULD HAVE DISCUSSED EARLIER BUT AS THEY SAY ITS NEVER TOO LATE. INDIA TODAY HAS BEEN GETTING DEEP INTO THE YOUNG GUNS OF INDIA THROUGH A STAR BACKED PLATFORM. IT WAS 3^RD “INDIA TODAY” YOUTH SUMMIT 2012 WITH “MIND ROCKS” AS THE BASIC IDEA OR PUNCH LINE.A STAR STUDDED LINE-UP OF SPEAKERS WHO HAVE WITH THEIR NICHE FOR SUCCESS MADE THEIR WAY TO THE TOP.

VENUE: SIRI FORT STADIUM, NEW DELHI

DATE: FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 7

AFTER OPENING SPEECH BY INDIA TODAY EDITOR-IN-CHIEF AROON PURIEIT WAS NOW TIME TO LISTEN TO THE YOUNG IDOLS THE WHOLE INDIAN TEENAGE GROUP FOLLOWS:

AKHILESH YADAV (chief minister, U.P.):

“THE YOUTH MAY BE INNOVATIVE, WE MAY BRING NEW IDEAS, BUT WE CANT DISCREDIT EXPERIENCE OF THE OLDER GENERATION. IF INNOVATION AND EXPERIENCE GO HAND-IN-HAND, WE WILL SURELY FIND A WAY”

“COME AND JOIN POLITICS” (when sharp questions on his govt. performance was shooted to him)

“IT HAS BEEN ONLY 6 MONTHS FOR MY GOVT”

“WHY SHOULD I GIVE THIS HONOUR TO SOMEONE ELSE?” (when asked about the best C.M. among modi,nitish,patnaik)

ARVIND KEJRIWAL( social activist):

“AFTER WINNING, A CANDIDATE FROM OUR PARTY WILL NOT GET A BUNGLOW, A VIP CAR, SECURITY GUARD or MP/MLA FUNDS”

He had to remind his audience that those calling him greedy for power n post were the ones who had once asked him to join politics.

MASABA GUPTA(designer daughter of actress neena gupta n cricketer viv Richards):

“YOU HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO TAKE UR CHANCES LIKE U TAKE UR VITAMINS”

She admitted trying out and failing at a host of careers before finding her true calling, almost accidentally.

IMTIAZ ALI(film director and writer):

“IT’S THE ACCIDENTS OF YOUR LIFE THAT ARE MORE INFLUENTIAL THAN THE DECISION YOU TAKE”

“LIFE GIVES YOU OPPURTUNITIES TO LEARN IN WAYS YOU DON’T EXPECT.TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT”

AYUSHMANN KHURRANA(actor):

“I WAS NEVER A STRUGGLER.I HAVE NO SOB-STORY, NO RAG-TO-RICHES STORY TO SHARE WITH YOU”

For the actor it was five key words picked up from his father, “PASSION”, “EFFORT”, “EXCELLENCE”, “SUCCESS” and “FAME”, allowed him to transform himself from a nobody to somebody.

ALI ZAFAR(Pakistani actor and singer):

“PEOPLE TREAT ME VERY WELL IN INDIA. IT EXCITES ME TO THINK I AM A PART OF THIS INDIA-PAKISTAN CONNECT”

“I HAVE ALWAYS PRIORITIES FULFILLING MY DREAMS OVER MAKING MONEY”

“a peaceful path forward can only be walked if we can all balance the weight of our past while looking straight into what we have ahead of us. Forgiveness and understanding will lead us ahead together” (when asked about indo-pak ties)

Zafar was asked about how much his looks have contributed to his success, “as much as the microphone contributed to the advancement of your question”

EKTA KAPOOR( t.v. & film producer):

“ITS LIKE WHAT COMES FIRST, THE CHICKEN OR THE EGG.TILL YOUNGSTERS DON’T WATCH TV, THERE WONT BE ENTERTAINMENT FOR THEM ON TV. AND TILL WE DON’T MAKE ENTERTAINMENT FOR THEM, YOUNGSTERS WONT WATCH TELEVISION”

“I WAS A TYPICAL , FAT-STAR KID, SPENDING ALL DAY IN FRONT OF THE TELEVISION, TILL MY DAD GAVE ME AN ULTIMATUM: GET A JOB OR GET MARRIED”.

She started making tv shows at 19.

Asked about her being a “tyrannical toon”, she said,” I did break an editing table once. I had been working continuously for 48 hours and at 4 am. I lost it”, she confessed.

PRIYANKA CHOPRA(actor):

“IF I TAKE OFF MY HEELS I WILL BE THE SAME GAWKY TEEN AGAIN.ITS OKAY TO BE FLAWED. JUST WORK ON YOUR FLAWS TO IMPROVE YOURSELF”

She credited her success to her will to win over self-doubt, “I knew dat if I could learn how to survive in an American high school, if I could learn to walk on the ramps in high heels to represent my country, I could learn how to act”

AJAY DEVGAN(actor):

“DESTINY CAN ONLY SHOW YOU THE PATH, BUT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO HAS TO WALK ON IT TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT”

“I was never a conventionally good looking actor and I had no method”.

Asked, “was it destiny then that determined his stardom?” “SEVENTY PERCENT WAS HARD WORK”, he said.

GAGAN NAARANG(ace shooter and bronze medallist LONDON OLYMPICS):

“FOUR YEARS OF TRAINING BOILS DOWN TO TWO HOURS OF PERFORMANCE IN THE OLYMPICS AND THE CRUCIAL 10 MINTS IN THE FINALS”

MARY KOM(five women boxing world title):

MARY KOM NARRATED THE THREE BELIEFS THAT DEFINED HER CAREER:

1)”boxing was not just a man’s game”

2) “that woman can carry on with it after marriage”

3) “that motherhood did not curb one’s desire to be a champion”

UNMUKT CHAAND( india u-19 world cup team captain):

When asked about his team winning mantra: “WE WENT TO A WILDLIFE SANCTUARY AND WERE TAUGHT SELF-BELIEF, CONTROLLED AGGRESSION, AND GOOD COMMUNICATION BETWEEN TEAM-MATES”

He also raised a popular point with the audience: “UNIVERSITIES SHOULD ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO STUDY”

VINEET NAYAR(vice-chairman and CEO HCL technologies):

“THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A DREAMER AND ACHIEVER IS THAT AN ACHIEVER KNOWS WHERE THE STARTING POINT IS, TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE”

He spoke of qualities needed to be succesfull, “FIND OUT WHAT IS YOUR BURNING DESIRE AND YOU WILL EVEN FORGET TO EAT”.

When asked about, “what does it take to become a CEO?” “Ask yourself what’s different about me and what price I am willing to pay , what risks am I willing to take, to get there”

SANJEEV BHIKACHANDANI(founder n vice-chairman of NAUKRI.COM):

“DON’T BECOME A PRISONER OF VISITING CARDS AND EMI’S. BE REALLY GOOD AT SOMETHING YOU LOVE”

His set of advice; “look for meaning, and not money; dream big but its all right to start small, act if you want achievement and self esteem; give it to people if you want to be a leader”

SANDEEP DIKSHIT(lok sabha MP):

“DEMOCRACY CANT BE REDUCED TO ELECTIONS. WE NEED PROTESTERS AS WELL AS VOTE-GATHERERS”

VIR DAS(stand-up comedian):

“I HAVE BEEN HAPPIER SINCE I STARTED THIS JOB THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE”

SONAM KAPOOR(actor):

“MY DAD AND MOM STILL CALL EACH OTHER “baby”, WHICH IS REALLY GROSS”

HUMA QURESHI(actor):

“go out there, live your life, have fun, meet the boys, kiss all the frogs”

reality shook me penetrating my soul brutally:

UNEXPECTED LESSONS:

I m nt sure how many of all here knows abt d existence of this link?? And have that much time anyway to read once what all I write. Though it was my paper diary whch was personal and then I switched on to the e-way keeping 80% of my life open. So this is the difference now of mode of sharing and I neva was influenced by who is visiting and comments, I m happy thinking that I am sharing it on a platform were either whole planet can read or a specific lobby. No fingers r crossed issues wid this as to how many appreciate my writing and forget it next moment. But there r xceptions and human race has alwaz tried to win over “no expectation” and landed no were and m no exception.i do expect a mass to read and read n wait for more but then how many are concerned and why and in which way they are concerned so as to share their part of life going through my different phases of life. That’s all I do here, sharing d phases I recall. No, its not a vote of thanks rather just a feeling I developed in due course of time that its really special when anybody shares or devotes his precious time to something which wud perhaps not change their life for great and grand. So am here making rather trying to show my deep gratitude to those souls who have alwaz been clicking “enter” after linking to this URL. I never wanted any feedback coz I know I cant change the writing spree as I have alwaz believed in “I hate changes” which is nothing less than bullshit!! But that’s d way I have been waking n sleeping from last one fourth part of century. What if no one reads it and as a asshole I keep on writing referring and taking into account all those present in my life?? This wud be not heartbreaking but funny stuff. Just hoping and writing, wishing if someday I am not here and someone then realizes my worth whch is too late for them and I am no more there to forgive or love them, then these words of mine will perhaps bring them close to me in my absence and as they say words are immortal, and who doesn’t wants to be remembered for good or different??? Here I m no exception mind you!!!

Now am sorry for taking u all to English version of aastha/sanskaar/gurubani channel “satsang-ing” with not completely worthless but still less important thoughts of my own creativity. Sharing my last week was the sole purpose of hitting the keyboard but see I again joined the club of people who with their work have proved mind the fastest thing travelling around us. By changing completely the track I ought to hold myself. Now again m doing the same thing I did in last stanza, so before u move ur cursor to the top right corner for avoiding something “maata ka jaagran”types lemme change the stanza n light a regular to dwell myself in d swimming smokes of time, alwaz moving ahead.

My heart felt condolence to the victims family shattered by the “sandy” in America.

Lets get back to the first lesson I came close to during last fortnight or so. Some unexpected turn of times made me go to rajasthan on a very short notice and I did went and wrapped up d purpose of this visit. It was 29^th oct I came to ndls paharganj station without a reserved ticket in any train for home. Though I knew one travel agency wid the name prince travels who has alwaz made the ticket available to me on a very short notice, as short as a minute before the train departure. I was eyeing a berth in mahabodhi which is d nly train whch runs from gaya to ndls and vice versa before shunting in yard.its timing is very good so I preferred as it arrives at gaya in d morning at 7 and gives u a full chance to carry on with ur work whole day as usual. I cudnt get a seat in that and was given option of poorva at 4.20pm or rajdhani at 5pm. It was 2AC hwh-ndls rajdhani I opted for and after paying him I asked him to look after my bag in his office and just thot to surf the pahargunj area once more. I had some lil food and one thing I wud like to mention is that in dis area you would find any cuisine you go for and any food item you know of. A range of dhabaas and restos and even bars will provide you with numbers of options making you go errr with the thought of which way to go and what I could miss?? You would come across many shops offering traditional stuffs from around the world and attracting the crowd, mostly foreigners and people visiting from other parts of country. Inspite of offering the same stuffs lined in all the shops they would never complain of recession and economy. Small shops with hardly the space to occupy a chair n table have crowded the space and this area is buzzing round the clock. Tiny shops do offer huge facilities as mentioned on the board they display. If you get inside a shop be it of anything and happen to share or discuss wid ur partner and somehow the shopkeeper hears ur whisper then that is one stop shop for you till you are in india. Whatever u need, mind u whatever they will serve you right there under your nose. Each shope thr has some unique feature of their own and some x-factor u can say associated.some are way old or ancient n other may be owned by a citizen of different country and many more to add.canali, Ralph,Gucci,Versace,jack n jones and all other creamy layer brands can find their brand accessories right here by just paying what a amul macho underwear costs. The most incredible thing is the varieities they offer. Here products go by the buyer’s budget and not buyers go by the products cost and brand. You can give a tough competition to the south ex guys sporting police glares and Hilfiger shoes by just spending less than a thousand.

They do have some sort of marketing strategy which is really intresting as well as annoying at tyms. The moment u step out of train on the platform someone somewere gets the vibe produced by ur shoes on the concrete and then till u r in capital someone is watching you and tracing all you want until they get a chance to come in the scene and serve you. They are no trained spies or undercover agents but the small bonds which forms a chain whose control is in the hands of a rich Punjabi or jaini or some north Indian sitting on the heap of all the white cum black collar business. Their face reading and ur body language prediction is the only tool they have to trace their type of customer. Not every one will disturb you and pull you in their car but the ones who know or observes you within seconds that what u need and what u can pay?? They have the rates of all the hotels in that area on their tip and you can say they are the oldest cum most efficient way of advertising and building rapport with customers. They are the moving mobile catalogues with each information feeded about that region or the moving delhi guide at ur service sir!!

Its never enough to sum up the paharganj legacy In any way for any scholar. Something are born to be legend and till the earth vanishes they have their legacy intact.

I had 2 hours before I had to board the train so I called a rickshaw puller and asked him to dive thru the market place and I jus wanted to check the area more keenly or you can say waste those 120 minutes. I have alwaz a habit of getting close to the people who often and mostly see themselves as inferior to me in any way.i don’t feel comfortable with this idea of theirs and just to avoid a complex distance I start with their native place and make sure he is open to me and relaxed to know we share the same earth and sky, what if our “happen to be” places are different?? I initiate so as to tell them that I too am absolutely from the same scene they r from and we can go walking hand in hand till some earthquake do us apart. That rickshaw puller was of my age only and through my previous encounter experiences I happened to calculate he must be from somewere in north bihar and he was. My next query if he is of my age group is about his education and family background. He was a student of part-one, which means first year of graduation. I was curious to know if he was a student in some DU college or what?? No, he was no way a student of DU. Back at his home he took admission in some college for his graduation degree and moved here to earn. Why so?? He wanted to study n study but his family in no way could afford even one time meal and then he decided to earn and learn. According to him his everyday saving is somewere around 350-450 and at the end of day he everyday goes to his uncle who works as a helper in some shop and deposit his saving everyday to him. He just manage two meals and that is it his expense is. His logic was saving everyday a certain amount, be it 300 or 450 for two months and then with his savings he would go to his village and sudy as well as help his family and invest the savings in farming or some sort of fruitful investement. And yes the investment he is putting into his studies after earning every two month is something a great deal for him which will make him a smart gambler. Once he run short of expenses and all his savings are spent in books and college and classes and fees of all sort he get back to his same job of rickshaw pulling and this goes on for him till he has a degree and a job were less physical work is required.the moment he finished this last line it was my stop were I had to leave his rickshaw and pay him. I couldnot collect my mind back from the pictorial representation I was going through as how hard days this guy has seen and still waits to see only to make his future and his families as well worth sleeping till late in the morning and fetching some reasons to go to bed late at night. I practically never met someone systematic as he was. This guy has beem trying to grab his oppurtunities be it rare only from the destiny and hardly anyone knows him in the crowd.yes he was no special in the crowd.thousands of lads like him are there driving and living but I am sure he will be known someday standing in the same crowd today he too is part of but in future he will just change the sides. Today he is at receiving end and may be when he wake up next day with yet another sunrise he wud be at the “received” end.

He was so subtle and happy with life that I was not able to face him when I thought of my antiques and all the demands I have been asking to my parents to fulfill and to whom he would be demanding and expecting and looking upto??? He mus be younger to me I guess and thr are people he is playing as a back-up to, he is giving them hope of a better future. There r people who miss his warmth as he is sacrificing the warmth for a beter tomorrow. These sacrifices are of priceless tags and could never be compared to all the sacrifices taking collectively I have come across in my life. I til date boasted sacrificing my so called infatuation bond gurlfrnd for my friend back in school and was centre of attraction among friends for being a great guy to do that. But is there any single soul who wud appreciate n applaud his sacrifices??? I know there are billions living in much worse condtions than him but is it necessary to advertise of their life, rather how they live?? Will they ever know what is the meaning of lifestyle and what sort of born-in features one should have to enjoy this lifestyle sort of life??? Will they ever know that hauz-khas village in delhi is not a rural belt rather one of the poshest locality to eat and shop on the globe?? We know so much and still sit with wrinkles as a result of scarcity of certain facilities and all and they don’t know anything about the world around them and often I find them happy n content running beneath the tree and soiling their body fighting with the destiny perhaps.

There are many queries which cropped up in my mind after writing through this piece, is something I wud die to answer for. Some souls similar to ours sharing the same space are vacant n empty with wishes and hopes and yet celebrating life like we do, the state of mind is same during the celebration and same is the hangover but the huge difference is satisfaction level. Some would abuse the last nyt party for loosing the business deal and some would cherish the night and move on without even thinking and counting about the moments they missed while in hangover. The reason is they have nothing to loosee and almost what not to achieve!!!

alvidaa saaansein..

now i realize that god wud have reduced the burden of this planet earth by not putting me in the scene. as people say that we are here for somethng great and everyone has a special hidden quality in them which they jus need to look at and enchance themself according to that. all this is worthless wateva i have done. when i look below the sky i can see billions of people running and walking foe something for someone but neither i cud possess anythng and anyone. they are all somehow connected to each other and they help to overcome the tough tasks. i cud nly see myself running towards a horizon which as i approach towards seems to come close but i am not able to get to the horizon. whole these years i have been running after stuffs which were like smoke in the atmosphere which as gets to other spheres a bit high n high mingles wd d light and disappears widot knowing wat wud be the call of the life??

the most stabbing thing is that i cud not make heads turn towards me and here is were thngs get gloomy for me. neither i ever made parents proud wd their heads high on collar nor did i kept lil importance in the lives of all my near and dear ones. why should i live when ppl know i m worthless and no one can get better than me when it comes to loosing d momentum.

its over for me now. thr is nothng left for me anywere and as d people are approaching for d weekend celebration my legs are moving towards the dark and gloomy galaxy which as they say is one way. i wish i cud make my parents proud, i wish i cud make my love be thr by my side till death do us apart and i wish it wud not have been me were i am rather someone shud have been here who ought to give away reasons to all for cerlebrating life.

in dis small blogging site i can say that i have suceeded in sharing my each phase of life wd the strangers once who claimed to be close to my world.

u all know wat I cudnt make someone shed tears for me, I cudnt hold someone to be thr by my side, I cudnt make anyone miss my presence, I cudnt make sumone smile wd rolling tears. Not a single eye I cud turn red wid my absence. I cudnt make a soul feel lonely widot me. not even i cud make sumone dream of me and wish for me wid the shooting stars..

Atlast I never ever cud hate someone to give me a reason to walk out of their life.

INTELLIGENCE BUREAU OF INDIA (IB)

MANY TIGERS BUT NONE LIKE SALMAN KHAN:

SINCE OUR INDEPENDENCE MANY SPIES AS THE KHAN PLAYS IN “EK THA TIGER” HAS BEEN INTRODUCED BY INDIA BUT NONE OF THEM GOT WHAT THEY DESERVED!!

HERE IS A LIST OF SOME BRAVE MEN WHO SACRIFICED THEIR FAMILY AND FUTURE FOR THEIR COUNTRY BUT IN LIEU THEY GOT BETRAYALS FROM INDIAN GOVERNMENT:

DAVID, AGE: 50

HE STARTED WORKING FOR THE INTELLIGENCE BEUREAU(IB) IN 90’S AND A\\WAS CAUGHT SPYING BY PAK ARMY IN 1999. AFTER 7 YEARS OF RIGOROUS IMPRISONMENT HE RETURNED TO INDIA IN 2006 AT HIS VILLAGE DADNVA, ONLY TO COUNT HIS LAST BREATHS WITH A PARALYSIS.

BALWINDER SINGH, AGE: 62

STARTED WORKING FOR IB IN 1972. CAUGHT IN PAK IN 1975 AND RELEASED IN 1988. CURRENTLY HE LIVES IN GAUSAAND NEAR AMRITSAR AND SUFFERING FROM MULTIPLE ORGAN FAILURE.

MOHINDER SINGH, AGE: 65

SPENT 15 YRS IN PAK JAILS.HE IS NOW WORKING AS A RICKSHAW PULLER IN AMRITSAR.HE WAS CAUGHT SPYING FOR IB IN 1971

GRFFAN, AGE: 40

SPIED FROM 1994-97 AND WAS NEVER CAUGHT. HE WANT TO COME OUT OF THIS PROFESSION AND AS A RESULT THE IB HAS CHARGED HIM OF FORGED CASES.

DANIEL, AGE:50

SPIED FROM 1994-97 FOR IB. HE WAS CHARGED OF MAIN ACCUSED IN AMRITSAR BOMB BLAST CASE WHEN HE THOUGHT TO QUIT.

SUNIL BHOLA, AGE:45

ITS BEEN ONE AND A HALF YEAR HE WAS FORCEFULLY SENT BY THE IB AND STILL HIS MOTHER IS WAITING FOR ANY PIECE OF NEWS ABOUT HER SON.

RAVINDRA KAUSHIK aka NABI AHMAD:

MOST FAMOUS AND SUCESSFUL SPY. DURING THE MUSSHARAFF-VAJPAYEE AGRA SUMMIT IN 2001 HE WAS INFORMED BY THE JAILER THAT HE WILL BE RELEASED ONCE THE AGRA SUMMIT CONCLUDES. HE STARTED DREAMING WITH HIS CO-PRISONERS ABOUT HIS FUTURE PLANS TO NOVE TO HIS NATIVE PLACE SHRIGANGANAGAR IN RAJASTHAN WITH HIS WIFE AND SON.BUT AS THE URDU RADIO CHANNELS IN THEIR BULLETIN TOLD THAT THIS SUMMIT HAS COMPLETELY FAILED AND THEN JAILER TOLD HIM THAT HE WONT BE RELEASED NOW. WHOLE BARRACK WAS STUNNED AT THIS AND RAVINDRA COULDN’T TAKE THIS AND BEORE HE WAS FOUND DEAD IN HIS BARRACK JUST AFTER FEW MONTHS HE WAS ALWAYS DEPRESSED AND SAD. IB DUE TO HIS STATURE USED TO CALL HIM “BLACK TIGER”. THE WORST PART: HIS BODY HAS NOT YET BEEN CLAIMED BY INDIAN GOVERNMENT. PAKISTAN HIGH COMMISSION ASKED THE IB TO CLAIM THE BODY AND GIVE IT TO HIS FAMILY BUT OUR IB ASKED PAKISTAN TO BURY HIM THERE ONLY.

the young "MISTRY"

SHAPOOR MISTRY: THE DARK “HORSE”

INTRODUCTION TO SHAPOORJI PALLONJI GROUP:

Shapoor’s grandfather SHAPOORJI PALLONJI laid the foundation stone in 1865 in partnership with an Englishmen.

One of the biggest and giant corporate house which started with construction and after a century they are still giving the other construction stalwarts a run for their money. Mistry’s which include recently announced heir of TATA group of companies CYRUS MISTRY, 83 yrs. Old PALLONJI MISTRY who recently passed the baton of “SHAPOORJI PALLONJI GROUP” to the man we are talking about here; SHAPOOR MISTRY.

Before we get into with the young mistry, have a look at some of the landmarks built by SHAPOORJI PALLONJI & CO. LTD.

1) HEADQUARTERS OF RESERVE BANK OF INDIA n HSBC IN MUMBAI.

2) CENTRAL RAILWAY’S TERMINUS AT CST.

3) PALACE OF SULTAN OF OMAN IN 1970

4) CABLE-STAYED BRIDGE ON GOA’S MAPUSA RIVER

5) INDIA’S TALLEST RESIDENTIAL BUILDING OF 64-STOREY “IMPERIAL TOWER” IN 2010

SHAPOOR MISTRY,

AGE: 48 YARS

NATIONALITY: IRISH

EDUCATION: MASTER’S IN BUISNESS STUDIES FROM UK.

SPOUSE: BEHROZ SETHNA (lawyer and daughter of eminent lawyer RUSI SETHNA)

BUISNESS ENTRY: AS DIRECTOR OF SHAPOORJI PALLONJI GROUP IN 1988

LANDMARK ACHIEVEMENTS: LEAD THE WAY TO REAL ESTATE, and ENTRY INTO EACH HOME THROUGH EUREKA FORBES and FORBES TECHNOSYS.

EIQUETTES: SOFT SMILING EXPRESSIONS, NO WAY A WORKACHOLIC.

LOVES: CRICKET and HORSE RACING (owns a stud farm in pune)

SHAPOOR MISTRY is now on his way to take his most toughest challenge as chairman of $2.5 billion SHAPOORJI PALLONJI GROUP. Challenge as, his father has now retired after a glorius period with the group and younger brother CYRUS MISTRY prepares to take over from RATAN TATA in December.

He is sitting on a pile of challenges to overcome and be the brightest star in the scene:

1) All alone as his father and bother are no longer available for decision framing.

2) He got to go for some talented management bandwith

3) He must prepare a second level leaders to take care of other operating companies under his belt.

4) BIOFUELS n HYDRO POWER sector needs a makeover to get things go on track.

He now heads the five giants in their respective fields, namely:

1) SHAPOORJI PALLONJI & CO. (construction, real estate)

2) AFCONS INFRASTRUCTURE LTD. (infrastructures project)

3) SP INFRA (projects on port, power and roads)

4) FORBES & CO. (water treatment)

5) GOKAK TEXTILES (textile and renewable energy)

d war we lost..

THE FOLLOWING OBSERVATIONS ARE FULLY OWNED BY THE BLOG OWNER:

Last two weeks I was quite busy with something I had no idea about.unknowingly only but as I received few leading magazines through subscription, one story which ran common was “50 years of THE WAR WE LOST. It doesn’t sounds good when we read about something which happened when we dint exist and we had to bow our heads before some country and it gives a revenge sort of feelings. I had never been through the SINO-INDIAN WAR story apart from who lost and that is it. Why we lost?? Why someone attacked us as we are a country who believes in when things can be brought on track with friendship then why to spoil our relation with our neighbours who are always looking forward to suppress us with the help of communist power. Stories of the war published in half a dozen magazines had certain things in common. Role of pandit jawahar lal Nehru (jln) who was prime minister during that war and foreign minister Krishna menon is still condemned and not accepted largely. Those cover stories which I read half a dozen times made a deep impact on my mind about some truths and bitter truths which atleast for our generation is untold.
It would be better if you read those print media stalwarts stories but I am giving a try to share some fundamental mistakes and lessons we made n not yet learned respectively.

SOME OF THE REASONS/DEVELOPMENTS LEADING TO THE 1962 WAR:

1949: birth of people’s republic of china. We were the first country to validate the formation as well as witness the process.

1950: PLA(people’s liberation army) moves to liberate Tibet (in their words); JLN considers macmohan line as boundary.

1954: we had some agreements on Tibet with five pacts were signed. JLN visits china and PRC’s advisor zhou enlai visits india.

1955: the two personalities again meet in afro-asian summit in Indonesia.

1956: zhou visits india and a long sessions with Indian officials go on. JLN points out the flaw as chineese maps showing 1,20,000 sq. km. as their own land.

1959: monk dalai lama flees Tibet and along with 1,00,000 tibetan refugees takes shelter in dharmshala, himachal Pradesh. Zhou says JLN encouraging rebels and short border disputes reported between ind-sino army.

1960: zhou visits india and welcomed by lots of protests and widot conclusion on boundary dispute they meet a dead-end.

1961: india brings “forward policy” in scene to push back the chineese intruders.

1962: war erupts following the dead-end of talks on boundary dispute.

INDO-SINO BOUNDARY: TOTAL OVER 3500 KM.:

“CONTROVERSIAL MACMOHAN LINE RUNS ACROSS THE EASTERN SECTOR.EARLIER ARUNACHAL PRADESH WAS KNOWN AS “NORTH EASTERN FRONTIER AGENCY” (NEFA). IN WESTERN SECTOR, THE BOUNDARY LIES ALONG LADAKH,INCLUDING THE AKSAI CHIN PLATEAU. 70% OF AKSAI CHIN AND ADJOINING AREAS ARE NOW UNDER CHINEESE BOUNDARY. TROOPS OF INDO-SINO ARE NOW DIVIDED BY THE “LINE OF ACTUAL CONTROL” (LAC)”

PLATFORM OF INDO-SINO 1962 DISPUTE:

TIBET AS WELL AS THE BOUNDARY BETWEEN THE COUNTRIES PLAYED THE ROLE OF PERFECT PLATFORM TO INITIATE THE WAR. IN BRITISH REGIME AFTER THE SIMPLA PACT IN 1914 THE MACMOHAN LINE WAS DRAWN WITH THE AGREEMENT BETWEEN TIBET,INDIA AND CHINA. THOUGH CHINEESE WERE A PART OF THE SHIMLA PACT YET THEY DISCARD THE AGREMENT. FREE INDIA ACCEPTED THE MACMOHAN LINE AS THE EASTERN BOUNDARY BETWEEN THE TWO COUNTRIES. NO PEACEFUL RESOLUTION WAS REACHED OVER THE CHINEESE NOT AGREEING WITH THE MACMOHAN LINE AND INDIA INSISTING THAT LINE AS THE BOUNDARY. DALAI LAMA AFTER HE FLEES LHASA AND TAKES SHELTER ON INDIAN SOIL TOO FURTHER STRAINS THE BILATERAL TIES AS CHINEESE ACCUSED US OF WALKING WITH THE REBELS.
ONCE NEHRU INTRODUCES THE FORWARD POLICY TO PUSH BACK THE CHINEESE, THINGS GOT WORSE. SMALL TIME BOUNDARY CLASHES ERUPTED IN A WAR ON OCTOBER 20, 1962 WHICH LASTED FOR 4 WEEKS.CHINEESE FORCES PENETRATES DEEPLY INTO INDIAN TERRITORY AND AT LAST WITHDRAWS THEIR TROOPS TO GET BACK TO THE ACTUAL LINE OF CONTROL (LAC). CHINEESE TAKES FIRM CONTROL ON THE AKSAI-CHIN REGION AND SURROUNDING PARTS WHICH STILL IS CONTROLLED BY THE DRAGONS.

British journalist interview with the outlook tells more about the failures of our PM: he authored a book “INDIA’S CHINA WAR” was very much controversial due to he raised curtains over from the issues our people had a different point of view over.
According to him:

• “ Nehru’s most profound mistake?? His approach: “ we’ll decide where the boundary is. Its not negotiable.they have to accept”
• Maxwell says; “I went to india as a profound admirer of Nehru/ it was a bitter blow to see how foolish he had been with china on the border issue”
• India and china have never had a legal international boundary. The macmohan line is an Indian claim line.
• I kick and kick myself. I feel I did india an injury. Had I been sharper..i could have saved these two countries from war.

ROLE OF SOME KEY PERSONAE:
INDIAN FRONT:
JAWAHAR LAL NEHRU (PM): chief negotiator of the boundary dispute, wanted close, strong ties with china.

KRISHNA MENON(DEFENCE MINISTER): nehru’s closet aides and negotiators on the boundary dispute with china.

GEN. P.N. THAPAR( CHIEF OF ARMY STAFF): the key planner for the armed forces during the war.

LT. GEN. B.M. KAUL (NEFA COMMANDER): commander of eastern boundary.

B.N. MULLICK (DIRECTOR,IB): key advisor to Nehru tasked with assessing and reporting chineese activities along the boundary.

M.J. DESAI (FOREIGN SECRETARY): negotiator of the boundary dispute and advisor during the war.

CHINEESE FRONT:
MAO-TSE TUNG (CHAIRMAN OF PRC): unquestioned leader and chief formulator of china’s foreign policy.

LIU SHAQI(PRC PRESIDENT): looked after the day-to day affairs of the country during mao’s absence.

ZHOU ENIAI(PREMIER): advisor of mao and chief negotiator during the boundary dispute.

DENG XIAOPING(GEN. SECY. OF THE CPC): planning of war handled with mao.

CHEN YI(FOREIGN MINISTER): boundary dispute negotiator. Who with menon came close to breakthrough.

ZHANG GUOHUA(CHINEESE GENERAL): played a key role during the invasion of Tibet.chosen by mao to play an important role in the 1962 war as well.

DECLARATION: I abhimanyu take full responsibility that the observation and piece of information is no way copied however after going through numerous articles and interviews I got the idea and gave it my format.

tell me u "hate" me

She is still not aware of the truth and fact that without her it really pains like someone is stabbing my heart in chunks. I am committed to live d way u want me to but if u will not fill dis gap wd ur presence then…”tum jaisa kahoge main rahunga par door gaye to zindaa nahi rahunga”. I am feeling like a small particle in a barren land wid no way out. M nt feeling like doing anything and evrythng is colorless,odourless,tasteless,emotionless for me.nothng in the vicinity is catalyzing d way it does to every single creature. While byking or driving its ur pic which rules d roost and I go onthinking and imaging as to what she mus be doing ryt now? What she wud be thinking right now?? All those living/non-living matter are luckier than me, which are within her reach. They can feel her,see her n fortunate enough to get her essence in their pores. I m jealous of each n every single thing that surrounds her. I cud never see her expressions n priceless smiles and her delicacy but so much of eye soothing scenario for those around her. It alwaz happens that rarely u get to own sumthng which u alwaz wished for n most of d times we r deprived of d most essential thing or the life support system. We must have done something great that our soul was awarded wid dis human body, as they say. We must have also made somenody’s life hell or done sumthng against nature that we go thru worth dying moments in our life. Wat does dis crap mean?? The day I will get into the grey matter and find out the way to get back to her and mak her mine in next birth I will quit dis body and will work on that. Why why why she is not with me?? With each breath and beat d pain of her absence is grabbing my life and soon a day will come when they too wud get tired n give up. My mind is choked wid her memories and I keep on getting back to those moments which omce made me d dictator of wonderland. I got nthng else around me worth cheering and applauding. True love n pure heart is sumthng virtual for me which r often used to console urself n win d battle against ur soul. M just fed up of evrythng.i m fed up of being tagged as a looser and now its high time for me to chuck it and let thngs go off. Now its no way possible to even see yet another sunrise n wait for it to set. Wheneva I go across d streets n lamp posts wd people laughing and making each other feel secured, I jus cudnt step back n move rather till it penetrates me deeply I face those scenes and then I look back wd a smile dat I too had my high fives. I cudnt make someone wait for me, I cudnt hold someone to be thr by my side, I cudnt even made them offer me a shoulder for my tears to rol, I cudnt fill sumbody’s life wd colors n joys. Not a single eye I cud turn red wid my absence. I cudnt make anyone stop or chase me while I ran on d slippery edges. Atlast I never ever cud hate someone to give me a reason to walk out of their life. I cudnt even make d god rethink for yet another chance and sunshine.